Thoughts from today’s reading of Matthew 26…
23 Jesus replied, “The one who has dipped his hand into the bowl with me will betray me. 24 The Son of Man will go just as it is written about him. But woe to that man who betrays the Son of Man! It would be better for him if he had not been born.” 25 Then Judas, the one who would betray him, said, “Surely you don’t mean me, Rabbi?” Jesus answered, “You have said so.”
Even after spending over 3 years with Him, Judas still couldn’t understand the fact that Jesus could look into his heart and know exactly what was going on there. What a fool he was to think that he could fool Jesus I said to myself. I couldn’t fathom that, until I realized that I could. It’s fascinating isn’t it that in our decision to choose to sin, that we actually put into our “calculation” the thought that as long as no one around us knows – including Jesus, then we can get away with it. The truth is, however, that there is ALWAYS someone who knows – Jesus Himself. It’s foolish to think that we can actually fool Him. What’s crazy is that we still go ahead and do it anyway. And that to me is at the core of why sin is sin. It’s not simply some bad act or behavior that makes it sin. It is the wanton disregard for the presence of the Holy God of the Universe in our lives even when we know that He is there right next to us as we sin.
With that said, our attitude when we sin isn’t that different from Judas.’ Where we CAN differ with him is how we respond after we sin. There was a complete and utter disregard of Jesus in Judas’ life even to the very end. While we do the same when we sin, where we can differ is how we respond afterwards - in repentance. Repentance is not simply feeling bad for doing something bad - but choosing sin over God having shunned His Holy presence as well as our own call to holiness. Repentance is not a performance issue. It’s a relational one. We repent not because we don’t want to be like Judas. We do so because we want to be restored in our relationship with the Father. #desiringGod2017